Hello everyone, long-time lurker here. I’m a bit nervous to post here, but I’m facing a dilemma and I would appreciate some input, if you don’t mind.
I’ve been playing this game since its launch in 2017 and have never missed a log-in bonus. I have all the free 4* Servants at NP5. It’s a bit embarrassing to admit, but I used to be addicted to this game, to the gacha system. I’ve spent too much money too many times for too little results. Despite this, I would always come back, hungry for more, more, more. I would say I was a small whale with not-very-good luck.
The Fate series (and other TYPE-MOON works) has a very special place in my heart. I love the vast and rich lore, the way magic works, and the originality in general. I play FGO mostly for the story. It’s not perfect and I would even say that some aspects are annoying, but I still always enjoy reading a new chapter. I don’t think I would enjoy the game as much as I do if I played on the Japanese server because I wouldn’t fully understand the story.
Lately, however, I get the feeling that I don’t enjoy the game as much as I used to—it started at the beginning of the year, when the Kingprotea banner dropped. I had been saving for many months in the hopes of summoning her, and even though I did get her, it took me about 1200 SQ for one copy. I was happy to finally have her home, but I was also kind of bitter even though I very well know that nothing is guaranteed when rolling the gacha. I grew even more bitter when the same thing happened with Kama and I started asking myself if the disappointment were worth it. I stopped whaling after that and became F2P. (It took me almost 400 SQ to get one copy of Ashwatthama this week, I swear this game truly hates me…)
And yet, despite the fact that I’m no longer a slave to the gacha, I still have a hard time enjoying the game as I used to. Don’t get wrong, I enjoyed LB4, but that’s pretty much about it. It’s like I suddenly lost all the interest I had in the game and I wonder if there is a way I can rekindle my passion? I considered taking a break, but there is a new event coming soon and I would hate myself for skipping it…
So, what should I do? Should I take a break and come back when I feel better? It’s not the first time I think about quitting, but it’s the first time I’m not feeling distressed at the thought of doing it. Maybe it is better to let go instead of feeling pressured to play and find no enjoyment in it? What are your thoughts? Has something similar ever happened to you? Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I apologize for the bad English.